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Sunday, May 7, 2006

11:40AM

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall, you're the one who saw me through .. though it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best thre was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith cause you believed
I'm everything I am because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best thre was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith cause you believed
I'm everything I am because you loved me

You were always there for me the tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining you love into my life
You're been my inspiration through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best thre was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith cause you believed
I'm everything I am because you loved me

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Wednesday, May 11, 2005

10:37PM

im sory ithat i hav not updfated for a long time except for today. i hav ebeen having a hard time getting over greg. i wus for a wihgle bolemic but its okay now because i lov myself and thatso kasy. i made a new firefnbd hand her name is kati. i rely likeher. but how i met her is she cam u p to me at svchool and told me htaht she wux the sgirl that greg wanted 2 hav a threesum wit . she said that she did it ebecause she liekd me and wanted to marry me. later that day she doconfsed that she only wanted to marr me for my vast glorious fortune. tehn she started to cry and i said kati i am gay. and she wus all oh lol thats oky buces gay guys are all super nice so now we will be friends. and that is how i met kati now we are friends.

here ar the pictures form teh xiu xiu shw last weeknd














fyi tehy were not very good live

afterwards i wus propsititoned for sex but i only gave him hed. tehn i got ice cream wit him and he dint cal me for a week. but thats k because he smelt a lil weird.

evrytone tish is kati:



hi kati

shemight get an lj she used to have on called azns but someo hacked it :( but she might come baq the only thing i do not liek about her is taht she does not liek pokemon or even play it. that makes me sad.

wel i am having a hard tiem w/o greg but i just remember how horible he wuz and how lucki i am to hvave found kati. wrrd around the schol is that greg got aids. i'm just kind og loling becus i never otld him about my aids. haha greg u can go die tahts wut u get for cumming in my ass and asking me to eat out some chik. fukk u. kati has aids now too but tahts ok becuz we become blood brothers anyways. taht is a band that i am probabaly going to see soon. i canot wait. oky well ia mhoi goibng to go ply pokemno a lil bit also bai bai my friends

Current mood: oliva

7:37PM

07-07-2001, 03:27 AM
nootch
Invader

Abducted: Apr 2000
Style: (not specified)
Posts: 1,114 (0.61 posts/day)


a REALLY LONG story about a party I went to a while back...

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I just remembered this after reading BizkitBabe's question over in the Stories & Games forum that asked: "Dance the night away or Near the wall watching is where you stay?"

Okay, this is a really long story, so I'll try to condense it down, but it will probably still be pretty long. Also, it's just a random story about my life ... so don't expect too much!

Some background info you should know to better appreciate the story: 1) I don't drink alcohol (but don't worry, I'm not one of those guys that thinks others shouldn't either, it's just not my thing). 2) I'm really shy around people that I don't know well (and especially with those of the opposite sex). 3) because of #1 and #2, I don't go to too many parties. 4) My best friend, Micah, is a social butterfly and parties like it's going out of style. 5) I'm an idiot.

So anyway, one of Micah's friends was throwing a big "Casino Party" at his place about a month ago. Micah invited me, and I decided I'd go (hey, can't stop being shy if I don't go out and meet new people right?). He called me on the day of the party and gave me directions, so I drive out, only to realize that he must have given me wrong directions because there is no party on the street he told me! After driving around the area for an hour, he finally called my cell phone to see if I was coming, at which point he realized he had given me bad directions. So I get to the party, finally, and he shows me around (they rented card tables, had a full bar and dancing all in different areas of the house).

Skip to about 2 hours later...

I walk into the room where people are dancing, and see a really drunk Micah dancing around like a fool with a feather boa. So I sit on one of the couches next to one of Micah's friends that I'm also friends with, and we're talking and laughing at Micah acting like an idiot. After a while, the guy I was talking to got up to go dance with his girlfriend, and I'd just be talking to various other people that I kinda knew. But sometimes there'd be no one around, so I just sat there, enjoying the music, watching people dance... just taking it all in. Anyway, while I'm sitting on that couch, I notice a girl sitting alone on an adjacent couch. Now, there were a lot of girls at this party, and a lot of them were really drunk, dancing around having a good time. This girl on the couch though, she was just sitting there (she didn't look like she was having a bad time, but she wasn't dancing, or really talking to anyone either). What really caught my attention about her was that she reminded me of me (people probably thought I was bored because I was just sitting there, but I wasn't at all, I was having a good time just hanging out). Call me a weirdo (and I swear it wasn't hormones!), but there was something very intriguing about this girl. She just seemed like the type of person I'd get along with, and so I really wanted to go over and start up a conversation with her. Here's where my biggest problem comes into play... I get soooo nervous talking to girls in a situation like this. Plus, I kept thinking that just because a girl is sitting alone doesn't mean she's inviting guys to walk up and hit on her (which wasn't my intention, but given the circumstances, I'm sure it would have seemed that way). I must have sat there for at least 45 minutes, trying to build up the courage to just go over and say hello (see #5 above). While I'm sitting there trying to come up with an excuse to talk to her, I see these two really shady looking guys walk over and sit on the couches by her. They actually started hitting on another girl first, but she wasn't very receptive to them, so they moved on to this girl (see, I didn't want to seem like these guys)! As soon as they sat down I realized that I had missed my opportunity to possibly meet a really nice person. So now I'm sitting there kicking myself for not going over and talking to her, and telling myself that I'll go over and talk to her a little bit after these fools leave her alone. Another 30 minutes pass by and the guys are still there (and they aren't really talking to her much either, but they're sitting next to her, and like one would get up while the other would stay there [as if they were out searching for other prey, but didn't want to leave her]. It really bothered me that guys can be so retarded like that). Anyway, all of the sudden I see Micah walk right up to her, reach behind her to grab his coat, and then walk away. A few minutes later he motions me from the other side of the room and I go over, and he says "lets bounce" (it was about 2:30am, and his apartment is about a 5-10 minute drive from the party). We were already standing at the front door, so we just left.

As I'm driving him home, I'm trying to tell him the story (telling him that it was the girl that was sitting by his coat), but he was waaaaay too drunk to know who I was talking about. But the whole time I'm driving him home, I'm thinking to myself "man, I don't have many regrets in my life, but this will definitely be one of them!" It was seriously driving me crazy! So we get to his place and I help him get in and get him to his bed and then I head out. And as I get back into my car, still thinking about how I'm gonna regret this night, I say "f*** it!" and drive back to the party.

Don't get your hopes up just yet though, as I'm driving back to the party, I'm thinking "what the hell am I going to say?!" ... I basically just figured that I'd tell her straight up that I noticed her while I was sitting on the couch there (I'm sure she noticed me too, though we didn't really make eye contact), and that I really wanted to go over and say hello, but that I was just too shy and then those guys came over and how my buddy needed a ride home, and finally explain how I realized that I'd regret it, so I came back, and here I am... I figured I'd say all of that and then see where the conversation (if any) would go. Of course, it's easier to imagine that all happening than to actually say all of that, so I'm still nervous as hell while I'm driving back to the party. It's now about 3am, and I have parked and I'm walking back to the front door. I contemplate chickening out and just taking off again (heck, no one knew I was going back, so no one would notice)... but I didn't want to have to have two regrets that night, so I opened the door and walked in.

As soon as I walked in, I noticed that 1) she wasn't sitting on the couch where she was earlier, and 2) a lot of people had left by now. So I go walking around to look for her (hey, I wasn't going to give up now). I walk down the hallway and turn to look into the kitchen (which led to the garage where the gambling was) and see her standing there (with her back towards me)... but she was holding a guy's hand (and I'm pretty sure it wasn't one of those two guys from earlier)! Defeated, I turned to leave, when a guy that was also standing in the kitchen (he was one of the guys throwing the party, but I didn't know him at all) asked if I needed something... so I asked if someone was still there (a guy that I noticed wasn't there anymore ), and he told me that his roommate just took him home. So I said thanks and left. Unfortunately that's pretty much the end of the story. I did go home fairly happy though, since I'm sooooooo not the type of person that would just go back like that.

If you're this far, I'd like to both give my appreciation for caring enough to read all of that, as well as apologize that it wasn't more exciting. But I will leave you with an appropriate movie quote:

"It's a great thing when you realize you still have the ability to surprise yourself. Makes you wonder what else you can do that you've forgotten about." -- American Beauty
07-07-2001, 03:27 AM
nootch
Invader

Abducted: Apr 2000
Style: (not specified)
Posts: 1,114 (0.61 posts/day)


a REALLY LONG story about a party I went to a while back...

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I just remembered this after reading BizkitBabe's question over in the Stories & Games forum that asked: "Dance the night away or Near the wall watching is where you stay?"

Okay, this is a really long story, so I'll try to condense it down, but it will probably still be pretty long. Also, it's just a random story about my life ... so don't expect too much!

Some background info you should know to better appreciate the story: 1) I don't drink alcohol (but don't worry, I'm not one of those guys that thinks others shouldn't either, it's just not my thing). 2) I'm really shy around people that I don't know well (and especially with those of the opposite sex). 3) because of #1 and #2, I don't go to too many parties. 4) My best friend, Micah, is a social butterfly and parties like it's going out of style. 5) I'm an idiot.

So anyway, one of Micah's friends was throwing a big "Casino Party" at his place about a month ago. Micah invited me, and I decided I'd go (hey, can't stop being shy if I don't go out and meet new people right?). He called me on the day of the party and gave me directions, so I drive out, only to realize that he must have given me wrong directions because there is no party on the street he told me! After driving around the area for an hour, he finally called my cell phone to see if I was coming, at which point he realized he had given me bad directions. So I get to the party, finally, and he shows me around (they rented card tables, had a full bar and dancing all in different areas of the house).

Skip to about 2 hours later...

I walk into the room where people are dancing, and see a really drunk Micah dancing around like a fool with a feather boa. So I sit on one of the couches next to one of Micah's friends that I'm also friends with, and we're talking and laughing at Micah acting like an idiot. After a while, the guy I was talking to got up to go dance with his girlfriend, and I'd just be talking to various other people that I kinda knew. But sometimes there'd be no one around, so I just sat there, enjoying the music, watching people dance... just taking it all in. Anyway, while I'm sitting on that couch, I notice a girl sitting alone on an adjacent couch. Now, there were a lot of girls at this party, and a lot of them were really drunk, dancing around having a good time. This girl on the couch though, she was just sitting there (she didn't look like she was having a bad time, but she wasn't dancing, or really talking to anyone either). What really caught my attention about her was that she reminded me of me (people probably thought I was bored because I was just sitting there, but I wasn't at all, I was having a good time just hanging out). Call me a weirdo (and I swear it wasn't hormones!), but there was something very intriguing about this girl. She just seemed like the type of person I'd get along with, and so I really wanted to go over and start up a conversation with her. Here's where my biggest problem comes into play... I get soooo nervous talking to girls in a situation like this. Plus, I kept thinking that just because a girl is sitting alone doesn't mean she's inviting guys to walk up and hit on her (which wasn't my intention, but given the circumstances, I'm sure it would have seemed that way). I must have sat there for at least 45 minutes, trying to build up the courage to just go over and say hello (see #5 above). While I'm sitting there trying to come up with an excuse to talk to her, I see these two really shady looking guys walk over and sit on the couches by her. They actually started hitting on another girl first, but she wasn't very receptive to them, so they moved on to this girl (see, I didn't want to seem like these guys)! As soon as they sat down I realized that I had missed my opportunity to possibly meet a really nice person. So now I'm sitting there kicking myself for not going over and talking to her, and telling myself that I'll go over and talk to her a little bit after these fools leave her alone. Another 30 minutes pass by and the guys are still there (and they aren't really talking to her much either, but they're sitting next to her, and like one would get up while the other would stay there [as if they were out searching for other prey, but didn't want to leave her]. It really bothered me that guys can be so retarded like that). Anyway, all of the sudden I see Micah walk right up to her, reach behind her to grab his coat, and then walk away. A few minutes later he motions me from the other side of the room and I go over, and he says "lets bounce" (it was about 2:30am, and his apartment is about a 5-10 minute drive from the party). We were already standing at the front door, so we just left.

As I'm driving him home, I'm trying to tell him the story (telling him that it was the girl that was sitting by his coat), but he was waaaaay too drunk to know who I was talking about. But the whole time I'm driving him home, I'm thinking to myself "man, I don't have many regrets in my life, but this will definitely be one of them!" It was seriously driving me crazy! So we get to his place and I help him get in and get him to his bed and then I head out. And as I get back into my car, still thinking about how I'm gonna regret this night, I say "f*** it!" and drive back to the party.

Don't get your hopes up just yet though, as I'm driving back to the party, I'm thinking "what the hell am I going to say?!" ... I basically just figured that I'd tell her straight up that I noticed her while I was sitting on the couch there (I'm sure she noticed me too, though we didn't really make eye contact), and that I really wanted to go over and say hello, but that I was just too shy and then those guys came over and how my buddy needed a ride home, and finally explain how I realized that I'd regret it, so I came back, and here I am... I figured I'd say all of that and then see where the conversation (if any) would go. Of course, it's easier to imagine that all happening than to actually say all of that, so I'm still nervous as hell while I'm driving back to the party. It's now about 3am, and I have parked and I'm walking back to the front door. I contemplate chickening out and just taking off again (heck, no one knew I was going back, so no one would notice)... but I didn't want to have to have two regrets that night, so I opened the door and walked in.

As soon as I walked in, I noticed that 1) she wasn't sitting on the couch where she was earlier, and 2) a lot of people had left by now. So I go walking around to look for her (hey, I wasn't going to give up now). I walk down the hallway and turn to look into the kitchen (which led to the garage where the gambling was) and see her standing there (with her back towards me)... but she was holding a guy's hand (and I'm pretty sure it wasn't one of those two guys from earlier)! Defeated, I turned to leave, when a guy that was also standing in the kitchen (he was one of the guys throwing the party, but I didn't know him at all) asked if I needed something... so I asked if someone was still there (a guy that I noticed wasn't there anymore ), and he told me that his roommate just took him home. So I said thanks and left. Unfortunately that's pretty much the end of the story. I did go home fairly happy though, since I'm sooooooo not the type of person that would just go back like that.

If you're this far, I'd like to both give my appreciation for caring enough to read all of that, as well as apologize that it wasn't more exciting. But I will leave you with an appropriate movie quote:

"It's a great thing when you realize you still have the ability to surprise yourself. Makes you wonder what else you can do that you've forgotten about." -- American Beauty
07-07-2001, 03:27 AM
nootch
Invader

Abducted: Apr 2000
Style: (not specified)
Posts: 1,114 (0.61 posts/day)


a REALLY LONG story about a party I went to a while back...

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I just remembered this after reading BizkitBabe's question over in the Stories & Games forum that asked: "Dance the night away or Near the wall watching is where you stay?"

Okay, this is a really long story, so I'll try to condense it down, but it will probably still be pretty long. Also, it's just a random story about my life ... so don't expect too much!

Some background info you should know to better appreciate the story: 1) I don't drink alcohol (but don't worry, I'm not one of those guys that thinks others shouldn't either, it's just not my thing). 2) I'm really shy around people that I don't know well (and especially with those of the opposite sex). 3) because of #1 and #2, I don't go to too many parties. 4) My best friend, Micah, is a social butterfly and parties like it's going out of style. 5) I'm an idiot.

So anyway, one of Micah's friends was throwing a big "Casino Party" at his place about a month ago. Micah invited me, and I decided I'd go (hey, can't stop being shy if I don't go out and meet new people right?). He called me on the day of the party and gave me directions, so I drive out, only to realize that he must have given me wrong directions because there is no party on the street he told me! After driving around the area for an hour, he finally called my cell phone to see if I was coming, at which point he realized he had given me bad directions. So I get to the party, finally, and he shows me around (they rented card tables, had a full bar and dancing all in different areas of the house).

Skip to about 2 hours later...

I walk into the room where people are dancing, and see a really drunk Micah dancing around like a fool with a feather boa. So I sit on one of the couches next to one of Micah's friends that I'm also friends with, and we're talking and laughing at Micah acting like an idiot. After a while, the guy I was talking to got up to go dance with his girlfriend, and I'd just be talking to various other people that I kinda knew. But sometimes there'd be no one around, so I just sat there, enjoying the music, watching people dance... just taking it all in. Anyway, while I'm sitting on that couch, I notice a girl sitting alone on an adjacent couch. Now, there were a lot of girls at this party, and a lot of them were really drunk, dancing around having a good time. This girl on the couch though, she was just sitting there (she didn't look like she was having a bad time, but she wasn't dancing, or really talking to anyone either). What really caught my attention about her was that she reminded me of me (people probably thought I was bored because I was just sitting there, but I wasn't at all, I was having a good time just hanging out). Call me a weirdo (and I swear it wasn't hormones!), but there was something very intriguing about this girl. She just seemed like the type of person I'd get along with, and so I really wanted to go over and start up a conversation with her. Here's where my biggest problem comes into play... I get soooo nervous talking to girls in a situation like this. Plus, I kept thinking that just because a girl is sitting alone doesn't mean she's inviting guys to walk up and hit on her (which wasn't my intention, but given the circumstances, I'm sure it would have seemed that way). I must have sat there for at least 45 minutes, trying to build up the courage to just go over and say hello (see #5 above). While I'm sitting there trying to come up with an excuse to talk to her, I see these two really shady looking guys walk over and sit on the couches by her. They actually started hitting on another girl first, but she wasn't very receptive to them, so they moved on to this girl (see, I didn't want to seem like these guys)! As soon as they sat down I realized that I had missed my opportunity to possibly meet a really nice person. So now I'm sitting there kicking myself for not going over and talking to her, and telling myself that I'll go over and talk to her a little bit after these fools leave her alone. Another 30 minutes pass by and the guys are still there (and they aren't really talking to her much either, but they're sitting next to her, and like one would get up while the other would stay there [as if they were out searching for other prey, but didn't want to leave her]. It really bothered me that guys can be so retarded like that). Anyway, all of the sudden I see Micah walk right up to her, reach behind her to grab his coat, and then walk away. A few minutes later he motions me from the other side of the room and I go over, and he says "lets bounce" (it was about 2:30am, and his apartment is about a 5-10 minute drive from the party). We were already standing at the front door, so we just left.

As I'm driving him home, I'm trying to tell him the story (telling him that it was the girl that was sitting by his coat), but he was waaaaay too drunk to know who I was talking about. But the whole time I'm driving him home, I'm thinking to myself "man, I don't have many regrets in my life, but this will definitely be one of them!" It was seriously driving me crazy! So we get to his place and I help him get in and get him to his bed and then I head out. And as I get back into my car, still thinking about how I'm gonna regret this night, I say "f*** it!" and drive back to the party.

Don't get your hopes up just yet though, as I'm driving back to the party, I'm thinking "what the hell am I going to say?!" ... I basically just figured that I'd tell her straight up that I noticed her while I was sitting on the couch there (I'm sure she noticed me too, though we didn't really make eye contact), and that I really wanted to go over and say hello, but that I was just too shy and then those guys came over and how my buddy needed a ride home, and finally explain how I realized that I'd regret it, so I came back, and here I am... I figured I'd say all of that and then see where the conversation (if any) would go. Of course, it's easier to imagine that all happening than to actually say all of that, so I'm still nervous as hell while I'm driving back to the party. It's now about 3am, and I have parked and I'm walking back to the front door. I contemplate chickening out and just taking off again (heck, no one knew I was going back, so no one would notice)... but I didn't want to have to have two regrets that night, so I opened the door and walked in.

As soon as I walked in, I noticed that 1) she wasn't sitting on the couch where she was earlier, and 2) a lot of people had left by now. So I go walking around to look for her (hey, I wasn't going to give up now). I walk down the hallway and turn to look into the kitchen (which led to the garage where the gambling was) and see her standing there (with her back towards me)... but she was holding a guy's hand (and I'm pretty sure it wasn't one of those two guys from earlier)! Defeated, I turned to leave, when a guy that was also standing in the kitchen (he was one of the guys throwing the party, but I didn't know him at all) asked if I needed something... so I asked if someone was still there (a guy that I noticed wasn't there anymore ), and he told me that his roommate just took him home. So I said thanks and left. Unfortunately that's pretty much the end of the story. I did go home fairly happy though, since I'm sooooooo not the type of person that would just go back like that.

If you're this far, I'd like to both give my appreciation for caring enough to read all of that, as well as apologize that it wasn't more exciting. But I will leave you with an appropriate movie quote:

"It's a great thing when you realize you still have the ability to surprise yourself. Makes you wonder what else you can do that you've forgotten about." -- American Beauty
07-07-2001, 03:27 AM
nootch
Invader

Abducted: Apr 2000
Style: (not specified)
Posts: 1,114 (0.61 posts/day)


a REALLY LONG story about a party I went to a while back...

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I just remembered this after reading BizkitBabe's question over in the Stories & Games forum that asked: "Dance the night away or Near the wall watching is where you stay?"

Okay, this is a really long story, so I'll try to condense it down, but it will probably still be pretty long. Also, it's just a random story about my life ... so don't expect too much!

Some background info you should know to better appreciate the story: 1) I don't drink alcohol (but don't worry, I'm not one of those guys that thinks others shouldn't either, it's just not my thing). 2) I'm really shy around people that I don't know well (and especially with those of the opposite sex). 3) because of #1 and #2, I don't go to too many parties. 4) My best friend, Micah, is a social butterfly and parties like it's going out of style. 5) I'm an idiot.

So anyway, one of Micah's friends was throwing a big "Casino Party" at his place about a month ago. Micah invited me, and I decided I'd go (hey, can't stop being shy if I don't go out and meet new people right?). He called me on the day of the party and gave me directions, so I drive out, only to realize that he must have given me wrong directions because there is no party on the street he told me! After driving around the area for an hour, he finally called my cell phone to see if I was coming, at which point he realized he had given me bad directions. So I get to the party, finally, and he shows me around (they rented card tables, had a full bar and dancing all in different areas of the house).

Skip to about 2 hours later...

I walk into the room where people are dancing, and see a really drunk Micah dancing around like a fool with a feather boa. So I sit on one of the couches next to one of Micah's friends that I'm also friends with, and we're talking and laughing at Micah acting like an idiot. After a while, the guy I was talking to got up to go dance with his girlfriend, and I'd just be talking to various other people that I kinda knew. But sometimes there'd be no one around, so I just sat there, enjoying the music, watching people dance... just taking it all in. Anyway, while I'm sitting on that couch, I notice a girl sitting alone on an adjacent couch. Now, there were a lot of girls at this party, and a lot of them were really drunk, dancing around having a good time. This girl on the couch though, she was just sitting there (she didn't look like she was having a bad time, but she wasn't dancing, or really talking to anyone either). What really caught my attention about her was that she reminded me of me (people probably thought I was bored because I was just sitting there, but I wasn't at all, I was having a good time just hanging out). Call me a weirdo (and I swear it wasn't hormones!), but there was something very intriguing about this girl. She just seemed like the type of person I'd get along with, and so I really wanted to go over and start up a conversation with her. Here's where my biggest problem comes into play... I get soooo nervous talking to girls in a situation like this. Plus, I kept thinking that just because a girl is sitting alone doesn't mean she's inviting guys to walk up and hit on her (which wasn't my intention, but given the circumstances, I'm sure it would have seemed that way). I must have sat there for at least 45 minutes, trying to build up the courage to just go over and say hello (see #5 above). While I'm sitting there trying to come up with an excuse to talk to her, I see these two really shady looking guys walk over and sit on the couches by her. They actually started hitting on another girl first, but she wasn't very receptive to them, so they moved on to this girl (see, I didn't want to seem like these guys)! As soon as they sat down I realized that I had missed my opportunity to possibly meet a really nice person. So now I'm sitting there kicking myself for not going over and talking to her, and telling myself that I'll go over and talk to her a little bit after these fools leave her alone. Another 30 minutes pass by and the guys are still there (and they aren't really talking to her much either, but they're sitting next to her, and like one would get up while the other would stay there [as if they were out searching for other prey, but didn't want to leave her]. It really bothered me that guys can be so retarded like that). Anyway, all of the sudden I see Micah walk right up to her, reach behind her to grab his coat, and then walk away. A few minutes later he motions me from the other side of the room and I go over, and he says "lets bounce" (it was about 2:30am, and his apartment is about a 5-10 minute drive from the party). We were already standing at the front door, so we just left.

As I'm driving him home, I'm trying to tell him the story (telling him that it was the girl that was sitting by his coat), but he was waaaaay too drunk to know who I was talking about. But the whole time I'm driving him home, I'm thinking to myself "man, I don't have many regrets in my life, but this will definitely be one of them!" It was seriously driving me crazy! So we get to his place and I help him get in and get him to his bed and then I head out. And as I get back into my car, still thinking about how I'm gonna regret this night, I say "f*** it!" and drive back to the party.

Don't get your hopes up just yet though, as I'm driving back to the party, I'm thinking "what the hell am I going to say?!" ... I basically just figured that I'd tell her straight up that I noticed her while I was sitting on the couch there (I'm sure she noticed me too, though we didn't really make eye contact), and that I really wanted to go over and say hello, but that I was just too shy and then those guys came over and how my buddy needed a ride home, and finally explain how I realized that I'd regret it, so I came back, and here I am... I figured I'd say all of that and then see where the conversation (if any) would go. Of course, it's easier to imagine that all happening than to actually say all of that, so I'm still nervous as hell while I'm driving back to the party. It's now about 3am, and I have parked and I'm walking back to the front door. I contemplate chickening out and just taking off again (heck, no one knew I was going back, so no one would notice)... but I didn't want to have to have two regrets that night, so I opened the door and walked in.

As soon as I walked in, I noticed that 1) she wasn't sitting on the couch where she was earlier, and 2) a lot of people had left by now. So I go walking around to look for her (hey, I wasn't going to give up now). I walk down the hallway and turn to look into the kitchen (which led to the garage where the gambling was) and see her standing there (with her back towards me)... but she was holding a guy's hand (and I'm pretty sure it wasn't one of those two guys from earlier)! Defeated, I turned to leave, when a guy that was also standing in the kitchen (he was one of the guys throwing the party, but I didn't know him at all) asked if I needed something... so I asked if someone was still there (a guy that I noticed wasn't there anymore ), and he told me that his roommate just took him home. So I said thanks and left. Unfortunately that's pretty much the end of the story. I did go home fairly happy though, since I'm sooooooo not the type of person that would just go back like that.

If you're this far, I'd like to both give my appreciation for caring enough to read all of that, as well as apologize that it wasn't more exciting. But I will leave you with an appropriate movie quote:

"It's a great thing when you realize you still have the ability to surprise yourself. Makes you wonder what else you can do that you've forgotten about." -- American Beauty
07-07-2001, 03:27 AM
nootch
Invader

Abducted: Apr 2000
Style: (not specified)
Posts: 1,114 (0.61 posts/day)


a REALLY LONG story about a party I went to a while back...

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I just remembered this after reading BizkitBabe's question over in the Stories & Games forum that asked: "Dance the night away or Near the wall watching is where you stay?"

Okay, this is a really long story, so I'll try to condense it down, but it will probably still be pretty long. Also, it's just a random story about my life ... so don't expect too much!

Some background info you should know to better appreciate the story: 1) I don't drink alcohol (but don't worry, I'm not one of those guys that thinks others shouldn't either, it's just not my thing). 2) I'm really shy around people that I don't know well (and especially with those of the opposite sex). 3) because of #1 and #2, I don't go to too many parties. 4) My best friend, Micah, is a social butterfly and parties like it's going out of style. 5) I'm an idiot.

So anyway, one of Micah's friends was throwing a big "Casino Party" at his place about a month ago. Micah invited me, and I decided I'd go (hey, can't stop being shy if I don't go out and meet new people right?). He called me on the day of the party and gave me directions, so I drive out, only to realize that he must have given me wrong directions because there is no party on the street he told me! After driving around the area for an hour, he finally called my cell phone to see if I was coming, at which point he realized he had given me bad directions. So I get to the party, finally, and he shows me around (they rented card tables, had a full bar and dancing all in different areas of the house).

Skip to about 2 hours later...

I walk into the room where people are dancing, and see a really drunk Micah dancing around like a fool with a feather boa. So I sit on one of the couches next to one of Micah's friends that I'm also friends with, and we're talking and laughing at Micah acting like an idiot. After a while, the guy I was talking to got up to go dance with his girlfriend, and I'd just be talking to various other people that I kinda knew. But sometimes there'd be no one around, so I just sat there, enjoying the music, watching people dance... just taking it all in. Anyway, while I'm sitting on that couch, I notice a girl sitting alone on an adjacent couch. Now, there were a lot of girls at this party, and a lot of them were really drunk, dancing around having a good time. This girl on the couch though, she was just sitting there (she didn't look like she was having a bad time, but she wasn't dancing, or really talking to anyone either). What really caught my attention about her was that she reminded me of me (people probably thought I was bored because I was just sitting there, but I wasn't at all, I was having a good time just hanging out). Call me a weirdo (and I swear it wasn't hormones!), but there was something very intriguing about this girl. She just seemed like the type of person I'd get along with, and so I really wanted to go over and start up a conversation with her. Here's where my biggest problem comes into play... I get soooo nervous talking to girls in a situation like this. Plus, I kept thinking that just because a girl is sitting alone doesn't mean she's inviting guys to walk up and hit on her (which wasn't my intention, but given the circumstances, I'm sure it would have seemed that way). I must have sat there for at least 45 minutes, trying to build up the courage to just go over and say hello (see #5 above). While I'm sitting there trying to come up with an excuse to talk to her, I see these two really shady looking guys walk over and sit on the couches by her. They actually started hitting on another girl first, but she wasn't very receptive to them, so they moved on to this girl (see, I didn't want to seem like these guys)! As soon as they sat down I realized that I had missed my opportunity to possibly meet a really nice person. So now I'm sitting there kicking myself for not going over and talking to her, and telling myself that I'll go over and talk to her a little bit after these fools leave her alone. Another 30 minutes pass by and the guys are still there (and they aren't really talking to her much either, but they're sitting next to her, and like one would get up while the other would stay there [as if they were out searching for other prey, but didn't want to leave her]. It really bothered me that guys can be so retarded like that). Anyway, all of the sudden I see Micah walk right up to her, reach behind her to grab his coat, and then walk away. A few minutes later he motions me from the other side of the room and I go over, and he says "lets bounce" (it was about 2:30am, and his apartment is about a 5-10 minute drive from the party). We were already standing at the front door, so we just left.

As I'm driving him home, I'm trying to tell him the story (telling him that it was the girl that was sitting by his coat), but he was waaaaay too drunk to know who I was talking about. But the whole time I'm driving him home, I'm thinking to myself "man, I don't have many regrets in my life, but this will definitely be one of them!" It was seriously driving me crazy! So we get to his place and I help him get in and get him to his bed and then I head out. And as I get back into my car, still thinking about how I'm gonna regret this night, I say "f*** it!" and drive back to the party.

Don't get your hopes up just yet though, as I'm driving back to the party, I'm thinking "what the hell am I going to say?!" ... I basically just figured that I'd tell her straight up that I noticed her while I was sitting on the couch there (I'm sure she noticed me too, though we didn't really make eye contact), and that I really wanted to go over and say hello, but that I was just too shy and then those guys came over and how my buddy needed a ride home, and finally explain how I realized that I'd regret it, so I came back, and here I am... I figured I'd say all of that and then see where the conversation (if any) would go. Of course, it's easier to imagine that all happening than to actually say all of that, so I'm still nervous as hell while I'm driving back to the party. It's now about 3am, and I have parked and I'm walking back to the front door. I contemplate chickening out and just taking off again (heck, no one knew I was going back, so no one would notice)... but I didn't want to have to have two regrets that night, so I opened the door and walked in.

As soon as I walked in, I noticed that 1) she wasn't sitting on the couch where she was earlier, and 2) a lot of people had left by now. So I go walking around to look for her (hey, I wasn't going to give up now). I walk down the hallway and turn to look into the kitchen (which led to the garage where the gambling was) and see her standing there (with her back towards me)... but she was holding a guy's hand (and I'm pretty sure it wasn't one of those two guys from earlier)! Defeated, I turned to leave, when a guy that was also standing in the kitchen (he was one of the guys throwing the party, but I didn't know him at all) asked if I needed something... so I asked if someone was still there (a guy that I noticed wasn't there anymore ), and he told me that his roommate just took him home. So I said thanks and left. Unfortunately that's pretty much the end of the story. I did go home fairly happy though, since I'm sooooooo not the type of person that would just go back like that.

If you're this far, I'd like to both give my appreciation for caring enough to read all of that, as well as apologize that it wasn't more exciting. But I will leave you with an appropriate movie quote:

"It's a great thing when you realize you still have the ability to surprise yourself. Makes you wonder what else you can do that you've forgotten about." -- American Beauty
07-07-2001, 03:27 AM
nootch
Invader

Abducted: Apr 2000
Style: (not specified)
Posts: 1,114 (0.61 posts/day)


a REALLY LONG story about a party I went to a while back...

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I just remembered this after reading BizkitBabe's question over in the Stories & Games forum that asked: "Dance the night away or Near the wall watching is where you stay?"

Okay, this is a really long story, so I'll try to condense it down, but it will probably still be pretty long. Also, it's just a random story about my life ... so don't expect too much!

Some background info you should know to better appreciate the story: 1) I don't drink alcohol (but don't worry, I'm not one of those guys that thinks others shouldn't either, it's just not my thing). 2) I'm really shy around people that I don't know well (and especially with those of the opposite sex). 3) because of #1 and #2, I don't go to too many parties. 4) My best friend, Micah, is a social butterfly and parties like it's going out of style. 5) I'm an idiot.

So anyway, one of Micah's friends was throwing a big "Casino Party" at his place about a month ago. Micah invited me, and I decided I'd go (hey, can't stop being shy if I don't go out and meet new people right?). He called me on the day of the party and gave me directions, so I drive out, only to realize that he must have given me wrong directions because there is no party on the street he told me! After driving around the area for an hour, he finally called my cell phone to see if I was coming, at which point he realized he had given me bad directions. So I get to the party, finally, and he shows me around (they rented card tables, had a full bar and dancing all in different areas of the house).

Skip to about 2 hours later...

I walk into the room where people are dancing, and see a really drunk Micah dancing around like a fool with a feather boa. So I sit on one of the couches next to one of Micah's friends that I'm also friends with, and we're talking and laughing at Micah acting like an idiot. After a while, the guy I was talking to got up to go dance with his girlfriend, and I'd just be talking to various other people that I kinda knew. But sometimes there'd be no one around, so I just sat there, enjoying the music, watching people dance... just taking it all in. Anyway, while I'm sitting on that couch, I notice a girl sitting alone on an adjacent couch. Now, there were a lot of girls at this party, and a lot of them were really drunk, dancing around having a good time. This girl on the couch though, she was just sitting there (she didn't look like she was having a bad time, but she wasn't dancing, or really talking to anyone either). What really caught my attention about her was that she reminded me of me (people probably thought I was bored because I was just sitting there, but I wasn't at all, I was having a good time just hanging out). Call me a weirdo (and I swear it wasn't hormones!), but there was something very intriguing about this girl. She just seemed like the type of person I'd get along with, and so I really wanted to go over and start up a conversation with her. Here's where my biggest problem comes into play... I get soooo nervous talking to girls in a situation like this. Plus, I kept thinking that just because a girl is sitting alone doesn't mean she's inviting guys to walk up and hit on her (which wasn't my intention, but given the circumstances, I'm sure it would have seemed that way). I must have sat there for at least 45 minutes, trying to build up the courage to just go over and say hello (see #5 above). While I'm sitting there trying to come up with an excuse to talk to her, I see these two really shady looking guys walk over and sit on the couches by her. They actually started hitting on another girl first, but she wasn't very receptive to them, so they moved on to this girl (see, I didn't want to seem like these guys)! As soon as they sat down I realized that I had missed my opportunity to possibly meet a really nice person. So now I'm sitting there kicking myself for not going over and talking to her, and telling myself that I'll go over and talk to her a little bit after these fools leave her alone. Another 30 minutes pass by and the guys are still there (and they aren't really talking to her much either, but they're sitting next to her, and like one would get up while the other would stay there [as if they were out searching for other prey, but didn't want to leave her]. It really bothered me that guys can be so retarded like that). Anyway, all of the sudden I see Micah walk right up to her, reach behind her to grab his coat, and then walk away. A few minutes later he motions me from the other side of the room and I go over, and he says "lets bounce" (it was about 2:30am, and his apartment is about a 5-10 minute drive from the party). We were already standing at the front door, so we just left.

As I'm driving him home, I'm trying to tell him the story (telling him that it was the girl that was sitting by his coat), but he was waaaaay too drunk to know who I was talking about. But the whole time I'm driving him home, I'm thinking to myself "man, I don't have many regrets in my life, but this will definitely be one of them!" It was seriously driving me crazy! So we get to his place and I help him get in and get him to his bed and then I head out. And as I get back into my car, still thinking about how I'm gonna regret this night, I say "f*** it!" and drive back to the party.

Don't get your hopes up just yet though, as I'm driving back to the party, I'm thinking "what the hell am I going to say?!" ... I basically just figured that I'd tell her straight up that I noticed her while I was sitting on the couch there (I'm sure she noticed me too, though we didn't really make eye contact), and that I really wanted to go over and say hello, but that I was just too shy and then those guys came over and how my buddy needed a ride home, and finally explain how I realized that I'd regret it, so I came back, and here I am... I figured I'd say all of that and then see where the conversation (if any) would go. Of course, it's easier to imagine that all happening than to actually say all of that, so I'm still nervous as hell while I'm driving back to the party. It's now about 3am, and I have parked and I'm walking back to the front door. I contemplate chickening out and just taking off again (heck, no one knew I was going back, so no one would notice)... but I didn't want to have to have two regrets that night, so I opened the door and walked in.

As soon as I walked in, I noticed that 1) she wasn't sitting on the couch where she was earlier, and 2) a lot of people had left by now. So I go walking around to look for her (hey, I wasn't going to give up now). I walk down the hallway and turn to look into the kitchen (which led to the garage where the gambling was) and see her standing there (with her back towards me)... but she was holding a guy's hand (and I'm pretty sure it wasn't one of those two guys from earlier)! Defeated, I turned to leave, when a guy that was also standing in the kitchen (he was one of the guys throwing the party, but I didn't know him at all) asked if I needed something... so I asked if someone was still there (a guy that I noticed wasn't there anymore ), and he told me that his roommate just took him home. So I said thanks and left. Unfortunately that's pretty much the end of the story. I did go home fairly happy though, since I'm sooooooo not the type of person that would just go back like that.

If you're this far, I'd like to both give my appreciation for caring enough to read all of that, as well as apologize that it wasn't more exciting. But I will leave you with an appropriate movie quote:

"It's a great thing when you realize you still have the ability to surprise yourself. Makes you wonder what else you can do that you've forgotten about." -- American Beauty

Saturday, April 16, 2005

11:50PM

last nite i broke up wit greg ;_; i wuz going to break up w/ him liek in feburary but i frogot and we ketp having anal sex taht was rely rly rly guud so i kind of intentionally forgot evn tho he wuz cheatin on me tehn last nite he asked me if i wanted 2 hava a threesum w him and this chik and i wzu all "no wtf i aint doing no chick fukk u" but he was liek "no fukk u u wont have to do her just mayb eat her out whil i fukk u in teh ass" and i wuz al "oh bith no u gone and dun it" so i dumped him on the spot


oh god tish life is so horrible an paingul an hard 2 liev sex wi greg was so fuckin good when he wuz jus pumpin my ass liek whoa it was like whoa mand when he came in my face it was liek heaven

omg greg i m so sory i wuz a bad bf im so soty i dont liek vaginas

but fukk u i ai'nta eating no goddamn pussy mothuer fucker fuck u

thnk u for teh memories



oooooo p.s. i beat pokemon yellow for the 18tyh time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11 go me!

11:50PM

if u dont know about bombdain plz dont read thisCollapse )

does ne1 kno who that iz? i thot it wuz bev_gets_wed but tehn tehy knew about bombdain o_______0

Thursday, April 14, 2005

7:46AM

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Thursday, April 7, 2005

7:48PM

sumeone buy m a paid account i wil have cyber sex w u if u do okay do u liek my icon???? y/n

Current mood: jesusss

7:40PM





barvra stresinasd is so beauitflyu

Current mood: streisansad

Sunday, April 3, 2005

6:06AM

i rly wish i hada  vagina right now

you know whati me an?

oky well here atrethe pcitrues from the q and not u show


























ilu sarah!!!!!1q



























12:14AM

where is my milk :(

12:13AM

you know that terri schiavo's death made god kill the pope rite? stupdi ignorant fukkers with teir choices >>:|

12:08AM

omg lol pope

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

3:24PM

does any body know the lyurics to that ong the wheels on the bus go rounf and round??? i need to know for school thanks

Wednesday, March 9, 2005

10:35PM

tonight i am really sad :( so i thot id psot some lurcis liek u guys do taht experss how i fele

The Lilly of the Valley

I have found a friend in Jesus, He’s everything to me,
He’s the fairest of ten thousand to my soul;
The Lily of the Valley, in Him alone I see
All I need to cleanse and make me fully whole.
In sorrow He’s my comfort, in trouble He’s my stay;
He tells me every care on Him to roll.

Refrain

He’s the Lily of the Valley, the Bright and Morning Star,
He’s the fairest of ten thousand to my soul.

He all my grief has taken, and all my sorrows borne;
In temptation He’s my strong and mighty tower;
I have all for Him forsaken, and all my idols torn
From my heart and now He keeps me by His power.
Though all the world forsake me, and Satan tempt me sore,
Through Jesus I shall safely reach the goal.

Refrain

He will never, never leave me, nor yet forsake me here,
While I live by faith and do His blessèd will;
A wall of fire about me, I’ve nothing now to fear,
From His manna He my hungry soul shall fill.
Then sweeping up to glory to see His blessèd face,
Where the rivers of delight shall ever roll.

Refrain

Current mood: jesus

Tuesday, March 8, 2005

9:19PM

OH BY THE WAY HP WOMAN DAY OT ALL OF MY LADY ALIVEJOURNAL FRIENDS!! KEEP TOHSE TITS HIGH :D

Current mood: high high high! o not like tha

9:15PM

dont u wish yu had a vagina sometimes or all the time i kno i do i want to know how it feels also i would keep things i n it like my money it would be liek the ultimate wallet u know

Current mood: vagina?

4:49PM

http://www.tigress.com/furry_lair/bc_mating.htm i am using this to write a report

Monday, March 7, 2005

7:04PM

WHO ARE ANY OF US???????!??

Saturday, March 5, 2005

8:17PM

helo livejournal!>! this is how u make me fell:

Current mood: god

Friday, March 4, 2005

10:39PM

thank u to every1 who added me over the past couple days i added u back and i'm sorry for my friends who deleted they're journals it was nice to know you i will keep you in my prayers!! :')




and i'm not going to fucking take any of you off.

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